Every time I hear today’s gospel message it resonates with me deeply. I can see myself, like Peter, being the one to start out boldly, and to trust in our Lord, only to have some fear derail my faith and begin to sink. How often this seems to happen in life. We start out with the best of intentions, and when some trial or trouble finds us, our first reaction is fear, and in that fear, we tend to forget to pray and to trust. Our first instinct is often to try to go it alone and deal with whatever trouble comes our way until we see that we are out of our depth and are beginning to sink; then we reach out to God. The question is, why isn’t asking God’s help our first inclination? Each of us has dealt with enough of life’s struggles, you’d think we would have this down pat by now. Not so. Make no mistake where the influence that often messes us up comes from. There is someone who absolutely does not want us to have reaching out to God as our first reaction. The enemy would much rather have us try to handle things on our own because he knows we will often fail, and be sunk into anxiety and fear, which are fertile ground for him to do his work. He can sow seeds of doubt and despair and leave us in a state that leaves us far from the reliance on God that should be our normal state, one that would leave us at peace and close to our Lord.
You see we are actually made to be closely and intimately in touch with our Lord in everything we do. That is happiness and security, and our surest path to peace in our lives. We are simply not made to go it alone, though that is our option if we are foolish enough to do so. God is not, and never has been, a puppeteer. He does not pull our strings, He instead gives us control so that we can learn and grow, and hopefully come to freely love and trust Him. It is a choice though, and one that does not always come to us with the answer being easily recognized, which is part of the residual effect from “the fall” that our original parents triggered. Yet even in that, there is great hope, because there is a new Adam (Jesus) and a new Eve (Mary) who have repaired and perfected what our original parents could not – our loving relationship with our Lord and the hope of spending eternity with Him.
I think that perhaps we sometimes forget that our place in heaven and our perfect intimacy with our God have already been purchased for us at a great price – the blood of His Son. This freely given gift is all the more reason for us to train ourselves to look to Him first in everything, in the good times and when trouble comes, and to trust Him. He should be part of our lives in everything. He is indeed that whisper that comes to us so often if we are attuned to hear Him. He is God, He has no need for grand displays. He is indeed not the fire, the wind, or the earthquakes. He is instead the subtlest of voices in our mind and heart that leads us and comforts us if we will let Him. The power comes from His message, not the display. I think that sometimes we forget that while we are sometimes impressed by such grandiose displays, they mean nothing to the God who created the cosmos, and who wields power on a scale that we cannot even comprehend. To use anything other than the subtlest of voices for such a God would be to intimidate such lowly creatures as ourselves, and that is not His way. Love speaks softly, and God is love; all we need do is listen.