Palm Sunday – April 5th 2020

I can remember as a child, and even through early adulthood, not liking the account of the crucifixion of our Lord. It started out as a dislike, simply because I knew that Jesus died that day, and I didn’t like that. Moreover, I didn’t care for the Jewish people involved, as I saw them simply as cruel murderers of our Lord. The killers of this Jesus that I had always been taught about, and who was so wonderful, why on earth anyone would want to kill Him, let alone in such a terrible fashion, was unfathomable to me. It never occurred to me, that I might be one of His killers. Nor did it occur to me, that some of my own actions would drive those terrible nails into his wrists with the same force as the largest of hammers that might have been used. I did not understand then, that the Jewish people were God’s chosen people, and their role was, in fact, instrumental to salvation for us all.

Jesus came to earth in human form for one reason, to restore us as a people, so that we would not be condemned to receive the fruits of our sins. So that forgiveness and a closeness to God our Father would be possible. He was born to this, He grew and gained understanding that this was His purpose and that He would one day fulfill all prophecy, and suffer and die for our sins. He did not aspire to the kind of greatness we humans relate to, He did not come as the warrior king, nor as the judge yet, but rather as the suffering servant. This was also foretold in prophecy but was not what the people of that time were looking for. The Jewish leaders were looking for a solution to the Roman occupation, they were looking for that warrior, king, and judge, too early. They did not want to recognize Jesus for what He was, in part because it did not appear to fit their needs, in part because they thought his teachings were dangerous since they called into question the conduct of those in their own power structure, and certainly because they had seen so many false prophets during that time that their hearts had become hardened, jaded, and afraid. They had lost their sense of hope and replaced it with their laws, their precepts, and their own illusion of control.

It’s no surprise that they held the trial before the Sanhedrin at night, a practice that was completely illegal under their own law; they were afraid of the people’s reaction, and the subsequent retaliation from the Roman occupiers when it would be apparent they could not control their own people. That is why Caiaphas said that it would be more expedient for one man to die, than for the people to do so. Against this backdrop, our Lord came into Jerusalem riding on a colt, as the people placed their cloaks and branches before him on the road. This humble king was acknowledged, knowing full well what this acknowledgment would cost Him. Yet this was why He came, to ultimately fulfill his Messianic mission through the suffering and death that would come from this proclamation of his kingship and divinity.

When the time came to celebrate the Passover, our Lord broke the bread, blessed it and gave it to His disciples to share His body, which would be broken for their sake. Likewise, when He raised the cup, blessed it, and passed it around for them to drink, it was for them to consume His blood which would soon be shed for them as the sign of the new covenant. This first Eucharist was to strengthen His disciples with the spiritual food that He told them explicitly was needed for them to have life within them, and to set in motion the Eucharistic celebration we continue to this day so that we may also have life within us. After sharing this first Eucharistic celebration our Lord knew that His time was near, and so went to pray, and in doing so experienced all our fears, and anxieties, and anguish, and brought them before the Father in prayer, yet He stayed focused on the will of the Father, and not His own. He knew what was to come and was obedient to the point of accepting all the suffering and death that the cross would bring. Our Lord did this out of love for us so that each of us would have the hope of being in God’s presence one day. He fulfilled all prophecy, and while suffering, He healed, He forgave, He carried His Cross, He gave us the gift of His mother as our own, and He gave himself. He completely emptied himself, so that we might be filled with hope, with His love, and with the promise of salvation. He did this with a love that we cannot completely conceive of, because we have no common point of reference. Perhaps that’s why sometimes it is so hard for us to really grasp what was done for us, and consequently, continue to sin. Could we really commit our sins, if we truly grasped His love for us? That is the human condition though; we still do not have a clear image of God’s love for us. If we did, we would know no fear, we would have an actual love for one another, and we would live for one thing only, the time when we would be united with God. This is our challenge, to try through our humble efforts to gain clarity of heart, and to try to grasp His love for us, so that we may stay focused on what truly matters, the love of God, and of one another that we return.

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Homily for the 5th Sunday of Lent March 29th 2020

It’s often very hard for us to grasp that what we see in the mirror each day is merely a shell of flesh that we are wearing. Our true selves are in fact not flesh at all but are spirit. The true essence of man is a spiritual one, that the Lord imparted to us when He made each of us. Yet we tend to focus primarily on the physical form. In some respects that is understandable, as our senses are limited primarily to the physical, though we do have the ability if we cultivate it, to perceive more than that. It is a grace that comes from God to be able to connect more with that which is spirit, and it comes from time spent in fasting and prayer, and leaving ourselves completely open, in order to receive God’s message. If on the other hand we simply focus on the physical (such as a growling stomach during fasting), then that is all we will perceive and know. Our Lord calls us to much more than that though, He wants us to live in the spirit, He wants us to exist at that level, which is the level that will lead to eternal life. The body will die, that is one of life’s certainties, but if we exist in spirit, we will not die, but live. It’s kind of ironic when we think about it, we have this physical form for such a comically short time compared to an eternity in spirit, you would think we would be so much more prone to focusing on that. That is why, if we really take the time to get past our current sensory experience, and actually contemplate our spiritual life, we can make strides toward living at that level.

I always like hearing about Jesus’ friends Lazarus, Mary, and Martha. We often think of Martha as being too focused on her work to really appreciate who is with her, and yet, it is actually Martha who first acknowledges that Jesus is the Christ. She hasn’t missed the point after all. She believes that Jesus as God can do anything that He tells her. Yes, this is the same Martha who complained to the Lord about her sister Mary not helping her with the work around the house in order to provide hospitality to Jesus and His followers. Yet while she may have been trying to take care of the earthly needs of those around her, she did not ultimately miss the point of who Jesus is. So, when He tells her that Lazarus will live, she does not question it, she does assume initially that He is referring to eternal life, even though Jesus means He will raise Lazarus from the dead. Martha, ever the practical one, even goes so far as to point out when they come to the tomb, that there will be a stench because of the amount of time that Lazarus has been dead. Yet she still believes that Jesus can do anything. When our Lord arrives at the tomb, he makes it a point to let those around him hear his petition to the Father, so that they may better understand what is about to take place. When he frees Lazarus from deaths grip and has them release him from the burial bands, there is a resurrection to physical life, but there is also the lesson of what is possible through God, and the underpinnings for our need to focus on life in the spirit, for it is only through that, that we too can be raised again. If we believe and are willing to let Him take control of us, we can experience the fruits of life in the spirit. We don’t have to wait for our resurrection from death to experience life in the spirit. We can have that intimacy and understanding now. We can live in the spirit now, by taking the time to contemplate who we really are, and what we were made for. We can look beyond the daily needs of the body, and instead focus on Jesus’ words of life, and the promise of life everlasting that He earned for us by his death and resurrection. We can mentally and spiritually shift our focus away from this current state we are in and look beyond what we will ultimately be. When we do this, our situation now is put well into perspective, and we need fear nothing of this world. Jesus is our focus, we surrender ourselves to Him, we let Him guide us, and form us, to be who and what we are truly meant to be. With that submission and trust comes both peace and hope for what is to come. We need not be slaves to our fears and earthly concerns any longer. We have transcended that through Christ, who can do all things for those who believe.

Take Care, and God Bless each of you!

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Homily for Sunday March 22nd

We all deal with something about ourselves that is less than perfect. Some flaw, some imperfection, that challenges us, and at times may perhaps be difficult to bear. Certainly, for the man born blind, there was much to be endured. He could not hold a regular job, he could not get around to all the places that perhaps he needed to go, at least not without difficulty, or perhaps assistance. On top of all that, he also had to deal with the fact that, in that society in that timeframe, it was assumed that either he or his parents must have done something awful that resulted in his being born blind. You see in that culture and time, most illnesses were not understood so much as physiological, but were instead attributed to retribution for offenses against God. This carried a heavy toll both internally in the way one perceived oneself, and externally in terms of a deep social stigma to be endured. The easily seen physical manifestations were, of course, the easiest to spot and nearly always resulted in judgement of the individual. Yet there are far more flaws that can exist in a person, than those that are readily apparent to physical observation. Our Lord made this very clear in his discussion with Samuel regarding who He would choose as his anointed one. Samuel could only see the stature of Eliab, but could not see his heart or mind, and so did not have the same image of him that our Lord possessed. With Gods insight he could truly evaluate Eliab in the ways that really matter and thereby know the true nature of the man. All the surface stuff, the lofty stature, the noble appearance, meant absolutely nothing.

If only we could be so observant, perhaps not so much about others since our senses are rather limited, but certainly about ourselves. We seem to sometimes spend far more time on our appearance, than truly taking stock of our situation within, really looking and evaluating at the level of our spirit. How have we been conducting ourselves toward others? How much time do we really spend with our Lord? Do we not only believe in Him but really trust in Him, to the point of being willing to let him take control and form us as He sees fit? Sometimes these are  uncomfortable questions to ponder. And yet, these are the only ones that really matter, these are the ones we will ultimately be judged on.

We’re in the midst right now, of a rather unique opportunity. At the very least,  our social calendars should be a bit freer of external activities, and in some instances, we may be downright isolated because of wanting to try to prevent the spread of the Coronavirus. This can certainly leave us feeling uncertain, and even perhaps afraid, and yet, even in this situation, there is the possibility of producing something very positive. We have time available to us to spend in contemplation, to catch up on our relationship with God, that sometimes may otherwise take a backseat to our busy schedule. We can spend some time in discernment, figure out where we are falling short, and actually work toward fixing these areas. Our Lord is always willing to accept our efforts. Make no mistake, while we may not have chosen to have some of this extra time thrust upon us, if we make good use of it, He will receive our efforts with joy. In times like this, things can seem rather dark and bleak, yet we are a people who no longer walk in darkness because of the light of our Lord that we now dwell in. To all who put forth the effort to draw close to Jesus, He will take away our blindness, He will be pleased with what He sees within us, and He will give us light.

 

God Bless each one of you, stay safe, and be hopeful. Allow our Lord to take care of you, and take great comfort in His love for each of us.

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Homily for Sunday, March 15th 2020

As a people, we sometimes lose sight of the gifts that God has given us until we find ourselves in circumstances where we are either in need, or afraid, or perhaps both. The Israelites found themselves without water, and promptly forgot all that the Lord had done for them bringing them out of slavery, and even went so far as to say they might have been better off back in Egypt. I have no doubts that as this coronavirus threat continues, we will hear the inevitable questions about “How could God allow this to happen?”. We’ve heard that same kind of question many times before when we are faced with adversity, this is just the latest issue because we are an equally forgetful people with no real sense of gratitude for the gifts we are given each day.

Let’s be blunt, as much as we like to think our existence is very solid and ordered, that is an illusion. We would be fortunate to leave Church and make it home in one peace without God’s help – that is more the reality of our own fragile and unpredictable existence. We don’t like to look at it that way, because it is uncomfortable for us to do so, that would be admitting how little control we really have, and in point of fact, how truly vulnerable we really are. So, we consequently push thoughts of acknowledging God’s graces aside, and the subsequent reliance that is our reality along with them, and console ourselves daily with thoughts that are more comfortable for us to digest. You see, when we self-medicate that way, we will inevitably lose the right mindset of gratitude for things He has already done for us, confidence in what He continues to do for us each day, and trust in what He will continue to do to guard and protect us in the future. Now, does this mean we should forget all our concerns and be oblivious to things that come along as part of our temporal lives? Of course not, God expects us to respect the gift of life that he has given us enough to do our part, but what it does mean is that we should not become so mired in worry and self-concern, that forget to trust in God’s help, and we forget to take care of one another due to excessive focus on our situation. There is a balance to be struck, that involves prudence, as part of God’s gift of intellect to each of us, and faith in His ultimate control and plan.

When Jesus spoke about the wellspring of living water that the Samaritan woman sought, part of that lifegiving water is Holy Spirit within each one of us allowing us to receive God’s grace of providence and protection in our lives. It allows us to receive these gifts in faith, which is how they must be embraced in order for them to truly work within each of us. The beauty of this wellspring of living water, is that like most flowing water, the longer it moves, the more it wears away at the hindrances that sometimes impede its flow. It is a self-improving situation from God’s grace if we allow it to be. Like the woman at the well, if we but ask for this wellspring, God will provide it. We must then nurture it by putting it into practice and cherishing it by showing our love and gratitude to God in the only way we really can – by a reliance on Him as His children that truly demonstrates our love and our trust. We sweep our house clean by seeking repentance and forgiveness that creates a fitting place for His spirit to reside. We take the time to meditate on the gifts he has given us, we acknowledge our need for Him in every moment of our lives, and we turn ourselves over to His care with trust and peace.

Our Lord told us we would have trouble in this life, this was one of those moments when you could tell He was speaking very plainly and directly rather than as part of a parable. His purpose in that statement, to let us know that this life is a testing ground for each of us, and unlike most tests, the answers come not just from within ourselves, but from our ultimate source of knowledge and grace. The question is, will we place our faith where it belongs, and allow Him to help us, or will we ignore the one constant to be counted on in a fragile reality? Allow Him to guide you and protect you, take care of His other children – your brothers and sisters, and face adversity as one, as the Body of Christ.

Homily from Sunday 1/26/2020

The people in darkness have seen a great light. What a joyful message to all people who choose to accept this light. And yet, there is still so much darkness to be dispelled. We celebrate this Mass several days after the annual DC March for Life. An event necessitated by the continuation of the mass killing of the most vulnerable among us.

The last time I checked the statistics, there had been over 61 million children denied the chance to simply be born and take their first breath on their own. That is ten times the number of Jewish souls lost in the holocaust, and almost three times the number of souls lost during the communist revolution and purges that took place after the second world war. There has never been a singular genocide in history that has exceeded this value, and yet it continues to this day. As a people, we are incensed when we hear of genocides occurring in other societies, yet we ignore the most profound darkness that we ourselves allow to continue in our own country.

So, when we hear the words “Repent for the kingdom of heaven is at hand”, I would have to question just how much of that we have actually taken to heart as we allow this to continue. Yet, the message of repentance, and of the light that has come into the world, should still give us both hope and joy. This is especially true for those wounded by the sin of abortion. More often than not, that choice to end a pregnancy is one of desperation and ignorance of the ramifications of the act itself. Yet the fallout and implications of the act affects several lives– those of the mother, father, and the brief life of the child. I have seen and experienced myself the guilt and inability to forgive oneself after having committed this act. It can last our entire lives and drag us into profound despair if we do not seek forgiveness and help. Yet God in his mercy has given us the light of His son, Jesus Christ, who took upon himself all our sins, past, present, and future, and purchased our forgiveness at a tremendous price, because of the love that he has for each one of us. There is no sin, that He will not forgive. No matter what it is, no matter how many times it has occurred, if we are truly repentant, he will forgive us – even when we have trouble forgiving ourselves. Yet, we must also keep in mind, that the act of sometimes not accepting His forgiveness because of our own feelings of guilt, is a sin in and of itself. We are then doubting God’s ability to forgive because unlike our own abilities, it is limitless. This does not mean we forget our sins, some of them burn deep, and are a reminder to us of what can happen when we are not vigilant in following God’s path. They can motivate us to seek change, both in ourselves, and in others whom we either see as proliferating the same sin or perhaps being vulnerable to committing it.

So, on this Sunday following the March for Life, I would invite anyone who has experienced the sin of abortion, to seek counsel and healing, beginning with the Sacrament of Reconciliation, but also continuing with additional counseling that is much needed, whether you realize it or not. There are many resources available, including Project Rachel, and others that you can participate in. Some of these are individual encounters, others are in a group format, so you may very well be helping others by participating. If you have questions or are afraid to talk about it, it sometimes helps to talk to someone else who is responsible for the same sin, and has perhaps shared your feelings – you are welcome to start with me. There are also resources available through our pro-life and social outreach ministries who can work with you.

To those among us who are younger and are the most vulnerable to the rhetoric and arguments presented by organizations like Planned Parenthood, and others, I would ask you with the most extreme urgency to always find another solution. The seemingly easy out that these proponents of death provide, will scar you for life. Their arguments are incredibly persuasive to those who are vulnerable and desperate, but I promise you, they are hollow, and you will regret such a choice. Please listen to those of us who have already found this out and learn from our mistakes.

There are many options available today, that allows you to choose life, even if you are not ready to become a permanent parent yourself. To all of us who are parents of a younger person, who is vulnerable to this situation, and that means pretty much all parents at some point in time, we must talk to our children about this. It is not a comfortable conversation, but it is critical, nonetheless. We must make them understand that we will not reject them for their decisions, we will not abandon them when they need us most, and we will work with them to seek a better option than death.

All life is sacred, this goes far beyond the issue of abortion, we must respect life in all phases. The yet to be born, the infirm, and the aged, all must be protected. We must also acknowledge and ensure the dignity and sanctity of life of those imprisoned, those who are on the fringes of society, and those who seek refuge in our land. God has a plan for all his children, and when we do not respect and protect any of those, we are then guilty of violating the two foundational commandments. Love God, and love one another, because we are all created in his image. All of our beliefs in the Sacraments, and in the building of His Church – the body of Christ, are predicated on the person being there to receive them or to participate. There is no middle ground with this issue. Yet this simple foundational precept too often seems to divide us both socially and politically. Those doctrines, either social or political, are secondary to what we believe in as Catholics. We place God first in all things, and we do not allow other points of view to eclipse His commands.

When this country was founded, it was founded to allow all people a chance to live and to thrive, and to be accepted into it, and within it. It was founded as a refuge for those seeking freedom, safety, and dignity of life. If our founding fathers could see what we have turned this vision into, I suspect they would question both our morality and our sanity. We are deeply divided in this country, by an artificial chasm between what we call the “left” and the “right”. This is nonsense and a deception to draw us away from unity when what we really should be looking at is simply right from wrong, and this begins with the most fundamental of moral obligations – respecting God’s creations. In the realm of this country’s current politics, we hear arguments made that try to persuade us that the values and ideals provided by a particular candidate, or organization overshadow their stance on the sanctity and dignity of all life. I do not agree, those other values they are proponents of mean nothing to those who are not here to benefit from them, and if we as a people are willing to accept them at the cost of the lives of others, then we are guilty of the greatest selfishness. Mother Teresa of Calcutta likely summed it up best, when she was speaking about the global inequality of resources being used, though I think it applies here as well. She said, “it is a poverty that others must die, so that you may live as you wish”.

Homily for Sunday, January 19th

Isaiah 49:3, 5–6

It is too little, the LORD says, for you to be my servant, to raise up the tribes of Jacob, and restore the survivors of Israel; I will make you a light to the nations, that my salvation may reach to the ends of the earth.

 

John 1:29–34

I did not know him, but the reason why I came baptizing with water was that he might be made known to Israel.

 

 

The message is clear, in our very roots as God’s people, we are each of us prophets, and evangelists – we are to make known to all people God’s word so that their lives will have His light.

As His followers, we operate at a debt, each of us has much to be thankful to God for, things that we cannot even begin to truly repay. So how can we at least try to show effort at balancing this – God asks us to love Him, to love those created in His image, and to spread the light of His message to all, because even those who do not believe are children of God as well, even if they do not realize or acknowledge that fact. God loves them nonetheless, and He expects those of us who do possess knowledge and love of Him, to share that prolifically, constantly, and if need be, persistently – so that all may come to a relationship with Him. If we do not, we are not answering our call, nor easing our debt.

“To the one to whom much has been given, much will be expected” – it is a surety that like any parent, God has expectations about how we use what he has given us. What we have learned from reading and hearing God’s word, will have the requisite expectation that it will be shared, and woe to the one who has done nothing with that knowledge.

So, how do we fulfill our destiny as prophets and evangelists? Do we go about preaching to everyone we meet? Yes and No, there are many ways of preaching, some more effective than others. I always loved the quote “proclaim the Gospel always, and if necessary use words”. There is a lot of truth to that, in that the doorway to our being able to have a discussion with someone to share our faith, is often the example we set by how we live our lives. No one is going to listen to a person who they do not perceive as being genuine. We have to walk the walk BEFORE we talk the talk. I find this to be particularly true for those of us who are parents. Our children have a finely attuned mechanism for detecting dis-ingenuine conduct or talk. When we try to stress to them about how important a relationship with God is, but then skip Mass on Sunday because it conflicts with a social or sporting event, what message are we really sending? I can guarantee you, that despite their likely enthusiasm at the moment, to go do something entertaining, our kids will eventually connect the dots. For that matter so will anyone else who is paying attention. We have to live what we hope to preach.

Whether we realize it or not, people who have not yet come to terms with their faith, are very often curious about those who have. It’s not unusual that they pay close attention to the conduct of others whom they see as believers while they are trying to make up their own minds. I can’t over-emphasize the importance of this. We need to always be sensitive to this, which I know is not always easy. I can recall an instance years ago, one of my daughters’ friends was over visiting, it was summer, and I was outside working on a carpentry project with my usual finesse and brought the hammer down on my thumb. A moment later a creative string of verbiage passed my lips, and from behind me, I heard a teenage voice sing out slightly sarcastically, now, now, deacon tsk tsk tsk. I was not amused, but I also realized later that she was right. I had to keep my mind focused always on how I conducted myself because you never know who is watching and taking note. A crass joke at a barbeque, a grumble about someone’s performance in the office, an unkind word about a fellow commuter in traffic. None of this goes un-noticed at times, and while it may seem trivial, it can cast doubt upon our overall conduct, and hence how much we really believe and adhere to God’s teachings.

Our responsibility as God’s followers means sometimes stepping back from what has become the social norms of some situations. We’re called to be a bit more thoughtful and reserved in our conduct. We’re called to exhibit greater patience and love toward others, even in times when that is not so easy. On our own, this is at best difficult, which is why we are called to always be humble enough to acknowledge our limitations and ask for God’s help. To daily spend time in prayer, not out of obligation, but out of personal necessity, so that we can have some hope of fulfilling our responsibilities. What is impossible for man, is absolutely possible for God.

If we live our lives in this way, with God’s help, we achieve a noticeable peace and serenity that others often find extraordinary. They may even ask us about it, and therein lies the opportunity. We can give testimony to our own challenges and experiences, and how we were helped to overcome and deal with them. We can talk to them about the peace that most of us seek, and so few of us find until we learn to rest in God’s care. We can talk about the solidity of our faith after investing the time to learn, and truly discover the depth and consistency of the Gospel message. All these things give testimony and provide others who do not yet believe with reasons to start their own search for knowledge of God. When we have influenced even one other soul, our efforts have certainly not been wasted.

The greatest help for anxiety and depression

There are a lot of you who may not know that anxiety is something I have dealt with for many years. It is something that I continue to struggle with at times, but that can be addressed in a way that might surprise you. You see, a big part of either anxiety or depression is despair that comes with either of them. Despair feeds off of our fears and worries and creates a downward spiral. This is something that we can combat with the help of God, who is far stronger than we are and desperately wants to help us. All that is asked, is for us to trust Him, and to allow Him to take on much of our burden. This can be harder than it sounds though and will require some practice, patience (on our part, He has that covered), and a small leap of faith. I can tell you though, that this absolutely will yield fruit if you give it a chance. If you are willing to give Him a chance.

What I am talking about specifically is a writing and prayer that was created by Father Don Dolindo Ruotolo, whose cause for canonization is being pursued. Father Ruotolo wrote much about the interpretation of scripture, but also about things that God inspired him to pursue that were designed to help us spiritually and even in our temporal life. Please read the writing below that I have quoted. You will not take in all the nuances by reading it only once, it may take several times, perhaps even a dozen, but as you relax and really allow this to speak to you, you will begin to see the places where the words that Father Ruotolo wrote by God’s inspiration will touch your particular situation. Read this with humility, and give it a chance. Whoever you are reading this, I hope you will find this helpful, and will give this a chance. God Bless You

“Jesus to the soul: Why are you upset and agitated? Leave your cares to Me and all will be fine. I tell you honestly, every act of true and blind reliance on Me, results in what you desire and will resolve all your difficulties. Abandonment in Me does not mean being frustrated, becoming anxious and desperate, offering Me your anxious prayer, that I may follow you and have your anxiety be a prayer. Abandonment means to shut the eyes of your soul in peace, moving your thoughts away from your troubles, and instead of thinking about your worries and pain, let Me take over your troubles. Simply say: Jesus, You take over. To be worried, restless, and to think of the consequences of an event is the opposite of reliance, it is really contrary to it. It is like a child, who wants his mom to take care his needs, but in the way he wants: and with his whims and childish ideas he hampers her work. Shut your eyes and go with the flow of My grace. Do not ponder over your present moment and put away thoughts of your future as a temptation; rest in Me, believe in My goodness and I swear on My Love, that if you think like this: Jesus, You take over, I indeed will do it for you, I will comfort you, free you, and guide you.

If I have to take you in a different direction from the one you are looking at, I will train you, I pick you up in my arms, and you will find yourself, like a baby sleeping in his mother’s arms, on the other shore. What gives you immense stress and hurts you, is your reasoning over it, your thoughts and the pains it gives you; it is wanting at all costs to take care by yourself of what is afflicting you. How many things I can do, be it a material or a spiritual need, when the soul turns to Me, looks at Me and says to Me: Jesus, You take over, and closes its eyes and rests in Me! You do not receive many graces because you insist on getting them by yourself; but instead you will receive numberless graces, when your prayer is in full reliance on Me. When you are in pain, and you pray that I may act, you want Me to act as you believe I should… you do not turn to Me; instead you want Me to submit to your ideas; you are like a sick person who does not ask the doctor for the cure, but tells him what the cure is to be. Don’t be like this, but pray as I taught you in the Our Father: Hallowed be your name, which means, may You be glorified in this need of mine; Your kingdom come, which means, everything may work toward Your Kingdom in us and in the world; Your will be done on earth as it is in heaven, which means, You direct it as it seems best to You for the good of our eternal and temporal life. When you truly tell me: Your will be done, which is the same then to say: Jesus, You take over, then I do intervene with all My omnipotence, and I will resolve every situation, even if there is no way out.

 For example, do you see your sickness becoming worse instead of improving? Don’t become anxious, close your eyes and tell Me with trust: Your will be done, Jesus, You take over. I repeat it, I do take care, I intervene like a doctor, and even do a miracle if it is necessary. Does a patient become worse? Don’t be frightened, close your eyes and say: Jesus, You take over. I tell you again: I will indeed do it for you, and there is no medicine more powerful than my loving intervention. I take over only when you close your eyes. You never sleep, you want to appraise everything, to think, to delve into everything; you choose to rely on human power, or, worse, on men, trusting their intervention. This is what hampers My words and My will. Oh how much I long for this reliance in order to assist you, and how much I grieve to see your anxiety. Satan does just this: he gives you anxiety to remove Me from you and throw you into human initiative. Trust only in Me instead, rest in Me, rely on Me in everything. I do miracles in proportion to your complete reliance on Me, with no thought of yourself. I spread treasures of graces when you are in the most squalid poverty. If you have your own resources, even a few, or if you seek them, you are at the natural level, thus you follow the natural way of things, which often are dominated by Satan. Never a thinker or a philosopher has done any miracle, not even among the Saints; only he who relies on God does divine work.

 When you see that things become complicated, say with your eyes closed: Jesus, I abandon myself to You; Jesus, You take over, and stop worrying about it, because your mind is sharp and for you it is difficult to distinguish evil; but trust in Me, and let your mind wander away from your thoughts. Do this for all your needs; all of you, do this, and you shall see great things, endless and silent miracles. I swear it on My Love. I shall indeed take over, you can be sure of it. Pray always with this loving confidence and you shall have great peace and great fruits, even when I choose for you the grace of immolating yourself for reparation and the love that entails suffering. Do you believe it is impossible? Shut your eyes and say with all your soul: Jesus, You take over. Don’t be afraid, I indeed will take care of you, and you shall bless My Name, in humility. A thousand prayers do not equal only one act of abandonment; don’t ever forget it. There is no better novena than this: Oh Jesus I abandon myself to You, Jesus, You take over.

Lastly, if you would like to ever speak to me about your struggles, and just talk, I would welcome the opportunity. I am a pretty good listener. No one needs to walk through this life alone, no matter what we are dealing with, that is not what was intended for us.

You can always reach me at this address – czlamal@gmail.com

Homily from Sunday, October 27th – Reliance on Jesus – the key to actually being fulfilled and not overwhelmed

 

You’ve heard me say before, that when I am writing a homily, I try to look for a common theme that will tie the readings together. It took me a little while with these, but I think I found it. RELIANCE.

1st reading – Sirach

“The one who serves God willingly is heard; his petition reaches the heavens. “

When you serve God, you have a close relationship and are often reliant upon his wisdom and guidance.

 

 

2nd Reading – Timothy

“But the Lord stood by me and gave me strength”

Saint Paul tells us how the Lord stood by him and strengthened him, and not for the first time, he has told us before, that it is only when he is weak, that he is strong through God – that grace is one of the fruits of reliance.

 

As a people, we’re sometimes not unlike the Israelites we read about in the bible, we have a strong tendency toward independence. Sometimes that can be a good thing, but all too often we channel that to the wrong areas, or perhaps to the exclusion of help. You recall in scripture, that Jesus has told us that unless we are like children we cannot enter the kingdom of heaven. What he means by that, is that unless we are willing to lose some of that independence, and instead rely on him, we risk being lost to Him. When we rely upon Him, we are instead prone to a closeness and intimacy that will not allow that loss to happen. We will reflexively look to God for our answers in virtually everything we do, instead of only exercising our own independent thoughts and methodologies. When we think we have all the answers and are better equipped to take care of ourselves on our own, we are no better than the Pharisee we hear about boastfully contrasting himself with that tax collector in today’s gospel. The Pharisee thinks he has it all together, unfortunately, he misses the whole point of prayer, because it is through humility in our prayers, that we are justified. It’s at times like these that the Pharisee’s words illustrate when we’ve gotten caught up in our own pride, that we tend to put God to the side. He’s relegated to being a nice idea for Sundays and perhaps Christmas and Easter, rather than really being our every day Father whom we should be listening to and depending upon for His wisdom. He certainly is not where He deserves to be, which is at the center of our lives. We often seem to talk about wanting a greater faith and to be closer to God. We complain sometimes about how He seems distant, or that we don’t feel His presence. Can we really be surprised at this? Everyone else in our lives that we don’t bother to spend much time with, probably seems a bit distant too, perhaps by design. If we would rather live our lives our way, as opposed to following God’s law, I suspect He is kept at a distance by design as well. Here’s the thing, He’s already proven to us that He loves us and wants to be included in our lives – he was willing to suffer and die for us. How much more do we want Him to prove it? More than anything else, He wants us to love him. He’s told us this. To love means to trust, and to include, and to value the other individual. It also means to spend time and to desire the others company. This Father that we have in heaven, let’s be real clear, He doesn’t actually need us, but he does desire us. He desperately wants that closeness, like any other parent with their child. However, he’s not going to accept it only on our terms. We need to obey Him, to show that we respect and value Him, as a Father. If we’re going to hold out conditions on our love and participation in our relationship, we’re behaving like self-centered brats, and the fact is, not only will this displease our Father, the irony is, we will be comparatively miserable as well from those limitations.

I’m reminded of a trip to a local restaurant a while ago. I watched a young couple with their child, who was perhaps two or three. It was very obvious from the start, who was really in charge. The parents were actually asking this two or three-year-old to make a choice about what they would like to eat and tried to explain what was on the menu. Obviously, this was more than the child could really handle, and he reacted the way a lot of kids do at that age when they are frustrated. He was frustrated because he had too many choices and not enough direct guidance. On the other hand, I’ve seen more seasoned parents tell their child what their choices are from a very short list, and the children are perfectly content because there is a framework of guidance in place. They don’t want to be overwhelmed, and frankly when it really comes down to it, neither do we. We are actually at our most miserable when all of life’s choices confront us, and we have no clear sense of direction. It scares us, and overwhelms us, even though we claim to have wanted the freedom of all those choices. Talk to the contrary, is usually bravado. So, why do we do this to ourselves? Why do we not want to accept a constant guiding presence in our lives? We need to spend some time in contemplation on that one. Are we really that arrogant to not want God’s input? Or are we living our lives in such a way, that perhaps we might not like the answers from that input? We live but once here on earth, and the future beyond that is to either be in God’s house or not. If that’s the case, why would we not spend our time here in such a way that we can eventually go to where a room has been prepared for us, and we can rejoice in the Father that we already know intimately?

Homily from August 11th – “Faith is the realization of what is hoped for, and evidence of things not seen”

“Faith is the realization of what is hoped for and evidence of things not seen.” Saint Paul provides us with actually one of the few explicit definitions of faith in the bible. However, this very definition illustrates a long-standing internal conflict that we are subject to. We are in part physical beings, that have a frequent struggle with accepting the things we cannot detect or define with our physical senses. Yet that is only half of our makeup. We are children of God and have within us that connected lineage and its fruits, which include senses that we do not always understand how to use or interpret. This struggle is part of the condition we endure because of “the fall” from our original human parents. They initially enjoyed, what we hope to one day regain – perfect intimacy with and understanding of God our Father. Yet from the beginning, there was free will, as God did not create us to be automatons, but rather creatures that were truly capable of love, which by definition involves choice. Sadly, that initial choice resulted in the struggles that we deal with even today.

God, in His providence and planning, did not leave us without both resources and a path toward regaining what was initially intended. We maintain the spark of the divine, of our original nature, within ourselves even today. This spark is what makes us the somewhat paradoxical creatures I was alluding to earlier. We are humans with physical senses and predispositions toward defining everything through them. However, because we also carry that divine spark, we have equally prevalent inclinations (if we listen to them) toward things that are not defined through the physical, and that we frankly cannot explain through those senses, though we often, unfortunately, try to confine our understanding of them within that context. You see, each of us comes hard-wired with a desire to understand, and to seek what cannot be completely explained through our physical senses – God. Even if we cannot completely articulate it, the desire is there. Moreover, each of us has a unique set of additional senses and a presence that defy a purely physical or what we like to term “scientific” explanation.  We have an innate sense of right and wrong that is universal across humanity. The same characteristics of what is seen as desirable in a person are virtually uniform in almost every society despite their possibly never having been an interaction between them. We possess senses that defy current scientific explanation. From the simple example of being able to sense someone staring at you from across the room without even looking, to the well-documented cases during times of conflict of family or friends knowing that something has befallen a loved one in battle, right down to the very second that it happened. Even the animals can sense our difference, did you ever ask yourself why animals react so differently to us, then they do to other animals. A large dog or cat can walk through a yard, and while the birds might keep an eye on them, they don’t scatter. However, if even a small child walks through the same yard, they usually take flight. Did you ever ask yourself why that is? They sense the spark that is within us, that makes us different.

So, our nature has two conflicting components, a primal physical self, and our spirit that still carries the fingerprint of God. Throughout secular and biblical history, we have struggled with these two natures. Abraham and Sara though initially skeptical made the leap of faith, and a nation was born. Abraham went even farther and placing all his faith in God was willing to sacrifice that which he loved intensely because he trusted that God could put anything right and that nothing was beyond Him. We are called to do the same, to use the side of our nature that connects us to God, and to accept Him on faith, and to act accordingly. This is our continual challenge, and why we are here in this life. We need to stay vigilant, and to accept more than what our physical senses can perceive, and to not be found wanting at the crucial hour when we meet our Lord. We need to listen to the inner sense that tells us when we are getting ready to stray from what God would want of us. We need to accept the more difficult paths and help our brothers and sisters even when it places a burden upon us. If we listen to that quiet voice that is within, and not drown it out with distraction or focus on self, we will succeed. On the other hand, if we are content to numb ourselves with distraction or other vices, and focus only on the pleasures of the here and now, then we have received our reward, and it should be no surprise to us that there is nothing to look forward to when we are judged.

Every person sitting here, and every person we meet, from the lowliest to the highest in society, is a child of God and was created in His image, right down to that divine essence that creates that spark. The man on the street corner sleeping on cardboard has no less importance in Gods eyes than the man sitting in the boardroom, and it should be so with us if we will use our other eyes, the ones that are truly the window to the soul, to look at them, and then to hopefully treat them as brothers. This is hard, because one half of our self is always telling us to move on, and that it’s not our problem or a headache we need right now. There are a million and one reasons we can come up with to focus only on ourselves and those close to us, and they will all fit through a very wide door, but that door is not the one we want to enter. Our door of choice needs to be the one that is so small and narrow, that it is almost without notice to our senses, but it is very plain to our soul. Now here is the real challenge, as Catholics, we have the benefit of an even greater level of understanding of God’s teachings, because we have an unbroken lineage that takes us back to the time that Christ spent on earth. We are privy to that which was taught and maintained in both the written word of God in the gospels, but also to the oral knowledge that was passed down and manifested as tradition within the early Church. We are the ONLY ones that have this unbroken line, and so we are privileged with this, and the expectations of us are commensurately higher. “To whom much has been given, much will be expected”. That’s ok, we are well armed for this challenge if we use the gifts given us and pay attention to what He has taught us.  Then all we have to do is be vigilant, and act.  God will never set us up to fail.

Homily from August 4th – where do we draw the line between needed work and time spent with family and God.

In our readings today we have several compatible themes that complement one another to really paint the picture of how misguided we sometimes become in our pursuit of “success”.

As in our first reading, “All things are vanity”  I think at times we really can display vanity in our pursuits of career and personal gain. Sometimes these things can be done in a very positive way. Such as working toward the wellbeing of our families, but we need to exercise caution that this does not sometimes metamorphized into an excuse to pursue our own successes on a more personal level, and perhaps even to the exclusion of our time and focus for our relationship with Christ, and his people (including our families). When this happens, it really is our personal vanity kicking in, and we can substitute the pursuit of personal gain, either in terms of money or perhaps position for our better initial intentions. If we’re honest with ourselves, I think we have all done this to one degree or another, but we need to be careful, we are cautioned against this. The fact is there is far more value that can be expressed in spending time with those we love, and this especially includes with our God, than in putting in overtime to make ourselves look good to the boss. Don’t get me wrong, hard work is important, we want to be able to take care of our families, and we are called to do so, but a balance needs to be maintained. The time that is put toward our more secular or professional pursuits, can never be regained to give back to our families, or to our God.

In our second reading from Saint Paul to the Colossians we are cautioned about how we conduct ourselves and are specifically cautioned against dishonesty and other evils that we are to have left behind now that we live in Christ. This applies equally to how we conduct ourselves in both our work and personal lives. We should in fact, periodically ask ourselves how we are doing with this, in other words, perform a sort of an examination of conscience. Are we ethical in our practices? Do treat others with an eye toward their personal well-being, and not just our own gain? Do we show compassion to those who are struggling in their jobs or in their personal lives? Like many of us here I work in a corporate environment, and I can tell you that doing so can be a consistent personal challenge because corporate culture is very often at odds with basic Christian ideals in many of its practices. I see this with the outsourcing that takes place to make the bottom line look a little better when stock prices dip, with little or no thought to the families impacted by those jobs lost. I see it in the expectations of time to be spent beyond the normal working hours that cost individuals their family and personal well-being time. I see it in the sometimes ruthless competitiveness for a position, or even just job survival. All of these things are realities that take place day to day as the corporate “norm”. Yet they are far from what we are called to do as followers of Christ, and I need to remind myself that while my company may be responsible to the stockholders, as individuals we were purchased long ago at a much higher price – the blood of Jesus Christ, and our ultimate allegiance and priority should always be there first. So, we need to be very cautious indeed in how we participate and conduct ourselves. Even if doing so can sometimes even be a bit costly to us in terms of professional gains, but it is nothing compared to what it can cost us in the true final accounting.

In today’s gospel, we are cautioned by our Lord specifically about what can happen when we forget our priorities to serve God and His children and focus too much on the accumulation of goods, and personal gain. There may come a day, where we do not show up for work again, and on that day perhaps there will be some nice platitudes said about us by those we worked with, but the jobs will go on virtually without interruption, and we will quickly become a memory. Our accomplishments and our impact on our employer will be fleeting in the eyes of most. One thing is for certain, we will stand before God on that day and account for our decisions, our focus in life, and our accomplishments. I have my doubts that corporate funds saved, projects completed, or promotions earned will be very high on His list. On the other hand, how we focused on treating our brothers and sisters, how much time we spent with our families and tending to them (especially our children, so that they grow up to be followers of Jesus), and whether we spent much time pursuing our relationship with our creator, will likely be pretty high on that list. The question is, how are we going to be able to answer? Did we try to keep our focus where it should be, or did we simply float along and try to accumulate as much as we could so that we could enjoy those material gains, and not give much thought to our responsibilities as followers of Christ – again, we were purchased at a price, and we should NEVER forget that.

Lastly, I want to share an observation with you, that I have noticed when driving around our state on the backroads. There are many poor communities that I have passed through. The homes and the cars parked in them are not very impressive, and there is often a lack of care for other niceties that make up a well-kept neighborhood. But, you should see the Churches that are part of these communities. They are usually spotless, well maintained, and populated not just for an hour on Sunday, but throughout evenings and other days of the week. They are a center of life for these poor communities, they take pride in them, they focus their lives on being with their nuclear family, their church family, and with their God. It is completely centric in their lives, a constant connection and reminder of the importance of their relationship with God and His other children. Frankly, I doubt these people even consider themselves poor, and to be honest, I don’t believe them to be so in all the ways that actually matter. I’m humbled when I see these places, and sometimes there is a part of me longs for more of that kind of grace of the closeness and cohesion that comes from the simple joy of working together in Christ. I wish that for all of us.